I finally believe in me…
All my life I’ve felt that I’ve been brainwashed to not believe in me. Only to be fooled into looking at the next person to make me feel good or to make me feel like I’m worth something. That stopped today.
Today a monument was built to represent the past me the me the didn’t believe in me. A monument built on the foundation of hurt, doubt, and shame. This monument was built as a reminder of where my path really began.
A friend once asked me “Do you remember that moment where you found yourself?” I would say to her, “They’re too many moments to remember, because I’m still finding myself.” This happens to be one of those moments.
You see on today 11/27/14 (even though I’m writing this at 1:30 in the morning on the 28th) I released a Christmas project on iTunes and Google Play with a friend entitled “Christmas Our Way”. This record stands as a testament to not only where I am but to where I’m going. It gave me a push from behind into the pool of integrity for my craft and a dive into the ocean of self-worth. This day in my life helped me realize that I can be what I want to be in life. I finally know that what I do can be great. It can touch someone’s life and that God can put me before great men. (Proverbs 22:29). And he’ll allow me to do these things without the approval of anyone else. Jeremiah 29:11 says For I know the plans I have for you” DECLARES THE LORD “plans to prosper you and not to harm you plans to give you hope and a future. That future looks so much brighter because I finally believe in my self! I don’t want to be a doubter. It only makes my steps in the will of God hesitant. When I doubt I question the fact that God can do anything. When I doubt I make myself become the reason I can or can’t succeed. When I doubt I lean to my own understanding. Because I Believe in myself I can walk in authority. Not because of what I can do for myself but because I take solace in what God has giving me what he’s destined for me to do.
Where I come from if you don’t do what every else is doing everyone else doesn’t see your worth. I’ve been bashed, ridiculed and belittled for picking the career path I’m on. But all of that was for God to pick me up and dust me off. And say “Son you’re worth my time!” So you see I believe in me now because I know God cares enough to believe in me. Each breath I breathe and each step I take is proof that he does!
BELIEVE IN YOU!… I DO!
Hope this blesses you!
Here’s the single from the #ChristmasOurWay
The Full Album link to iTunes is here>>>> Christmas Our Way<<<<